By Martin Falatic
Written 2004-01-26
Revised 2004-01-26
9… Whew… I feel dizzy I think… can’t breathe… what-
8… Oh god, no… no no no no NO! I’m not ready, I’m not done!
7… But I have to, but I didn’t get… wait, let me…
6… Like fuzz in the ears, it’s so quiet… where was I? Oh god…
5… I love you. I never told you but I love you, I love you, I love you all but I never told you I love you.
4… Please don’t forget! It doesn’t matter but please Please don’t forget!
3… I’m sorry…
2… I’m so very very sorry for all of it and none of it but most of all for all I didn’t do…
1… God oh god Allah creator destroyer Spirit Meaning whoever you are please be there please be there please someone something somewhere be there-
0… Are you listening?! Is anyone listening?! I was here! I mattered! I-…..